sigh.

So now you know.

Couldn't say anything for obvious reasons, plus i didn't want to ruin it for anyone.

Knew about it for weeks. Phil Sgriccia (director) was kind to call us ahead of time and tell us we were going out. Totally didn't see it coming but those are always the best ones.

I was a little shocked at first....why bring us back just to kill us off?....was the question in my mind. Who knows why. If we were a fly on the wall of the writers room, maybe we'd have a better idea. Maybe they don't even know.....i would imagine writing is a tricky thing. So many variables to think of. I do believe that they needed a nail-biter-shocker to go into the mid season break and i think Jo and Ellen were a good target. Wish it wasn't the case but it made for some good TV, no? Plus, come on......do they let ANYONE live on the show? The boys, Bobby, and Cass. Everyone else is fair game.

It was a wonderful way to go. We had fun. Cried buckets of tears for the goodbye scenes. Alona did, too. Bizarre working with the hellhounds as they were CGI and weren't really there at all. I don't know how actors do big blockbuster movies working with just a CGI character.......director has to talk you through it.....you are reacting to something that isn't there....gotta use your imagination. Weird.

The shout out to Kim Manners was an idea from one of the Camera guys, Brad. He came up to me quietly on the down low before we shot that piece where i say goodbye to Dean and said, "hey, when you turn around to say "don't miss" try one where you say "kick it in the ass" ". The line was just supposed to be "....and Dean, don't miss". We did both. They put both in. It was a bittersweet moment for the cast and crew. Robin the props gal cried......Kim is/was and will always be a very loved and missed man. Especially on that set.

They were really lovely to myself and Alona. Gave us a nice send off. Sent us beautiful gift baskets and made the sweetest send off DVD. It made me cry. Phil and Kristin (in the LA office....post production) put together a little compilation DVD montage of a bunch of our work....best part: it was done to Tom Jones' song, She's a Lady. It was very thoughful of them. I cried.
Hell, i BAWLED after i shot the last scene (where i got up and took the chain off the doors and let the dogs in). Like a break up.....and you lose his family, too. You know that feeling?

Ah well. Great thing about Supernatural.....you can always come back as a ghost or something else non-human.....and i don't think that is totally out of the question. There was talk of that, but i think it might have been maybe to make us feel a bit better? Who knows. With this show anything can happen.

And hey......there are always the conventions! Three of them next spring/summer....Australia, Germany and Spain. Totally Psyched.....May will be here before you know it.

XO

Samantha F, im just another Supernatual fan wanting to let you know how amazing i thought you were on the show last night! You played the emotions brilliantly, i am a 23 year old guy and i for sure shed a few tears! You have always been my fav recurring character on the show, it was great to have you back this season and just like in seasons 3 and 4 you will surely be missed!! P.S I have youtubed you saying "you can go back to hell you ugly bitch" about a 15 times since last night, you are seriously kick ass!
By Jake @ 20 Nov 2009 01:05 pm

Hi Samantha,

I just wanted to say you rocked it last night. I was shocked and cried like a baby. I thought Ellen and Dean had great chemistry and looked forward to them having a close friendship. I always thought Dean having a woman as a close friend would be interesting. Anyway, I've never posted here before I just had to let you know how much I will miss you on the show....

Shellie
By Shellie @ 20 Nov 2009 01:08 pm

Just wanted to say that your performance, along with the rest of the cast, especially Alona, in SPN's Abandon All Hope, blew me away. As a parent I could totally understand why Ellen did what she did. We have our children, we raise them, and yes, we would be with them at the end so they would not be alone. And I loved it so much that I will even forgive you for making me cry and will not bill you for the Kleenex. And you are right that it is Supernatural, and no, you do not necessarily stay dead, so I am hopeful that Kripke and Co. will find a way to bring you back.

Yours,
Karen
By Karen @ 20 Nov 2009 02:04 pm

Well - what can I say ... I had an awful feeling and Alona might be the two to die ... cried buckets too. But like you said, this is Supernatural and anyone can come back!!

See you in Australia next year!!

Rachel
By Rachel @ 20 Nov 2009 02:22 pm

Samantha - Last night was absolutely amazing! You and Alona were wonderful together. As a mother it really ripped my heart out, and you did an incredible job as Ellen. Thank you for sharing you hard work and talent, and we'll be crossing our fingers that ghost Ellen will come back to give Dean and Sam the kick in the ass they usually seem to need!

Stephanie
By Stephanie Heatley @ 20 Nov 2009 02:37 pm

I was shocked. And I am grieving these strong characters, that you and Alona brought out into existence so beautifully. They will be a piece of the heart of the story, always. Thank you for your work on the show!
By Kimberly @ 20 Nov 2009 02:46 pm

Samantha -- I think you and Alona both did a beautiful job. Ellen and Jo have always been favorites of mine since they were introduced, so I was pretty upset to see them go. The end of that scene with Ellen holding Jo.... I was bawling so hard! The facial expressions, vocal tone, everything was just right, IMO. You nailed it! I'll hope right up to the last episode that somehow, one or both of you comes back, because I think that's one of the great things about this show. Anything can happen.
By Karen @ 20 Nov 2009 02:54 pm

Watching that scene was very intense and heartbreaking. There have been many intensely emotional moments on Supernatural but this is the first time I've cried watching the show. You and Alona did an amazing job and really hit it out of the park!! I'm very sorry to see these two characters gone as I think they added a much needed dimension to the show.

I'm really going to miss Ellen and Jo.
Kat
By Kat @ 20 Nov 2009 03:03 pm

I'm still heartbroken your characters died. What a heroic way to go out though.

That episode was epic and you played a huge role in that. Thank you, Samantha, for adding so much to my favorite show of all time.
By LindsayW @ 20 Nov 2009 03:03 pm

It broke my heart!.......I never saw it comming. But when you/Ellen decided to stay........Flood gates I tell you!

Sniff! Please come to LA Con! It would be so awesome to see you!

Hugs and Smooches!
By Annielicious14 @ 20 Nov 2009 03:08 pm

Samantha I just wanted to say you and Alona were amazing Last night, I cried so hard. You two have always been my favorite Female Characters on the show and it was more then sad to see you go. But I knew if one went the other would go...your a team an amazing team. Who will truly be missed. Can't wait to see what the future has in store for you, but I know it will only be good things. Thanks for Everything you gave to the show and its fans. All My Best Now and Always. :)
By Desiree @ 20 Nov 2009 03:08 pm

It broke my heart!.......I never saw it comming. But when you/Ellen decided to stay........Flood gates I tell you!

Sniff! Please come to LA Con! It would be so awesome to see you!

Hugs and Smooches!
By Annielicious14 @ 20 Nov 2009 03:11 pm

Gotta say Samantha that i'll miss Ellen..but i could see that moment coming where she would refuse to leave her baby to die alone..i dont think ANY mother could or would...and the way it was done that Jo died before the explosion and Ellen realising it and having to deal with it before she died....but man what a great way to go out of a show....i was crying buckets ..my tear ducts are NOT amused...and so many of us picked up on the Kim tribute too and found it a really nice touch...but it'll be a while before i can watch the ep again...i'm glad you and Alona got nice send-offs from cast/crew its nice to have made such an impact
By Dawn @ 20 Nov 2009 03:12 pm

Definately one of my favorite episodes of the season. I was able to keep it together when i watched the episode live (might of been the fact that i was drinking with a friend :P) but when i watched it again alone today - damnit i cried like a little girl. Both you and Alona gave amazing, heart-wrenching performances and i hope they bring you both back for a little haunting ;-)
....any plans to do VanCon 2010?
By Stephanie @ 20 Nov 2009 03:14 pm

Congrats on an awesome way to go out Samantha, i cried absolute buckets at the interaction between you and Alona, it was beautiful.

So sad to see you go, you'll be missed!
By Kelly @ 20 Nov 2009 03:20 pm

I cried and cried, and still wan't to cry, you have always been one of my favorites on the show, I like Jo too. The scene was so emotionally heavy, plays heavy on my empathy. CRIES. Your amazing, and I can't wait to meet you in Australia, and them bringing you back to make us cry, I think Kripke is actually evil and loves to torture the fans and the actors, I wonder lol.
They could bring you back seems Lucifer likes to turn into different people that will effect the boys. Hope they bring you both back would like to see Ash and Pamela too. Dang you Kripke "Cries"
By Dixie @ 20 Nov 2009 03:26 pm

I cried like a baby when Ellen and Jo died. :( It was so sad to see them die. I wanted them to back again. But yeah, they can always come back as ghosts, hahaha.

You and Alona did a terrific job! It was so heartbreaking and so perfect! <3

It's nice of them to send you girls stuff.

Wish I could meet you but I'm already going to the convention in Birmingham the week before Germany. Will get to meet Alone though, so that's cool!

Loved your work on Supernatural and I do hope you'll be back as something supernatural (:

xoxo
By Kelly @ 20 Nov 2009 03:29 pm

Ms. Ferris, you were simply awesome. I'm a tough girl, I swear, and I was crying all your scenes!!!
Why the great girls in SPN have to die?? Jo, Pamela and you are the best female characters in that show!! May be you could return with JDMorgan??? XD
I loved your acting and Alona was awesome too.
My best wishes in your career, I'll keep an eye on you!!
Besitos and I hope see you soon!
By wesleyoso @ 20 Nov 2009 03:32 pm

Aw, Sam, gonna miss Ellen. I totally cried each time I watched that scene (yep, watched the ep 2 times back to back) You and Alona completely sold it and if you had to go, fighting Lucifer would be the way to do it, even if you didn't go face to face. I have my suspicions about why it had to be you two and I think it has to do with future Winchester decisions, but either way, again, will TOTALLY miss you and glad Ellen was back even if for a short period.

Praying for a flashback ep
By Maria @ 20 Nov 2009 03:36 pm

Those scenes were really magnificent. As a mother of thwo daughters I really could relate. Although it's sad because I liked both characters it was a formidable way to go down leaving a lasting impression. Thank you.
By Aesculap @ 20 Nov 2009 03:38 pm

Hi Samantha. All I can reall say is WOW! I have watched the show from the beginning, and although I have been close to tears a few times, never cried as I did during yours and Alona's final scene on SPN. Great job, both you and Alona. If I ever get the chance to meet either of you, it would be a great pleasure. If you have Twitter, look me up and add me..or if you have Facebook...Take care. I will be looking for any upcoming projects you do. Thanks for being one of the great ones!
By Judy @ 20 Nov 2009 03:40 pm

I feel like I lost family. Two characters I did not want to see go. However, I have faith in Eric Kripke's vision for the show.

Maybe, if I"m lucky, you'll get to do the Vancouver convention in August too. Thank you for Ellen - I will miss her.
By Tigershire @ 20 Nov 2009 03:40 pm

I loved Ellen, and the scene made me cry buckets. It was very well done, very powerful and emotional. I hope Ellen does come back, even if it's only in flashbacks, she was such an amazing characters. Thank you for your hard work and determination, the fans truly appreciate it!
Wish you all the best in your future
By May @ 20 Nov 2009 03:41 pm

Hey Samantha,

I cried when I watched your last supernatural episode. You and Alona did such a great job. I will miss you both so much. But like you said, it's supernatural, you'll never know what happens next. And I would love it so much to see you coming back as a ghost.

I'm so excited because of the Convention here in Germany next year. I've never thought that we would get this opportunity here. I really can't wait to see you here next year. I'll hope you like our beautiful country!
By Daniela @ 20 Nov 2009 03:44 pm

I was sobbing my eyes out in that final scene. You and Alona did an absolutely phenomenal job on it.

And the 'kick it in the ass' just got me in the gut.

As for the conventions, think you could do some in the U.S., maybe the South, maybe Dragon*Con? Because I have much praise to heap upon you, you amazing woman, you
By Beth @ 20 Nov 2009 03:46 pm

I was so sad to see your characters go out - but it was a wonderful scene - you totally knocked it out of the park! Wonderful, wonderful work... Everyone I've talked to was incredibly moved by that scene - it resonated with every mother watching. I read somewhere that later in the season the boys are going to get a glimpse of Heaven... We know you all went down for that side, so ??? keeping my fingers crossed. And then, there's always flashback or time travel episodes too! Lots of ways for the kick-ass women of SPn to come back.
By Lisa @ 20 Nov 2009 03:48 pm

I'm a fan of his work, not wish you exit the series. It's a shame I am very sad at the same time disappointed with the producers.I hope that is spelled right, do not speak and write in English....bjs do Brazil
By cacau @ 20 Nov 2009 03:48 pm

Hi Samantha!
I just wanted to tell you, that I love what you did with Ellen. Throughout the series I really got to love her, so, yeah, I cried my eyes out over her death. Your performance was wonderful, all through the series, but in this ep you really touched my heart.
I hope to see you in more productions, and wish you all the best!
A Supernatural fan from Croatia
By Lara @ 20 Nov 2009 03:48 pm

Hey Sam,
Thanks for sharing that with us. The scene had me crying my eyes out. So sad to lose the Harvelles but what a send off it was. Girl Power!
Thank you for telling us about the Kim Manners shout out- it makes that scene all the more special now.

Can not wait to meet you in Australia. I just hope I don't break down crying (I'm a huge Ellen fan) and it killed me to see her go.
Lots of Love
Em
By Emma @ 20 Nov 2009 03:49 pm

Hi, I just wanted to say I thought you were amazing in the episode last night, I'm not usually one who bawls watching TV programs but watching the scene with you and Alona had me crying buckets! Everyone comments how Eric Kripke is an amazing writer and how he can break the fan's hearts in seconds, but I have to admit that it was you who broke my heart! You made the character and her emotions come to life for me, which is the reason why the scene touched me so much! I felt Ellen's despair as though it were my own! I hope to see you in more roles such as this, you are a wonderful actress and I am now a massive fan of you!! Lots of love! KJ xxxxxxxxx
By K.J. @ 20 Nov 2009 03:51 pm

Hi, I just wanted to say I thought you were amazing in the episode last night, I'm not usually one who bawls watching TV programs but watching the scene with you and Alona had me crying buckets! Everyone comments how Eric Kripke is an amazing writer and how he can break the fan's hearts in seconds, but I have to admit that it was you who broke my heart! You made the character and her emotions come to life for me, which is the reason why the scene touched me so much! I felt Ellen's despair as though it were my own! I hope to see you in more roles such as this, you are a wonderful actress and I am now a massive fan of you!! Lots of love! KJ xxxxxxxxx
By K.J. @ 20 Nov 2009 03:52 pm

You did such a wonderful job! You conveyed so much emotion, and the moments with Ellen and Jo were so touching. It just broke my heart. But I'm happy that, of all the ways to go, they went out sacrificing themselves for the greater good.
By JaCaria Williams @ 20 Nov 2009 04:01 pm

It was a great send off for both you and Alona. The only way a hunter could go.
On a personal note I sobbed like a baby!!! And I have got to tell you it was heartbreaking to watch. You have become like family to all of the fandom and it's like losing our own mother &/or sister.

You & Alona will be deeply missed by me and I know all of the fandom.

Hope to hear nothing but great things from you Sam & I really hope to see you again soon at another con. You & Alona are both such talent actresses that the only way you can go is UP!

Hugs from the midwest
Kaye
aka: samjacklover
By Kaye @ 20 Nov 2009 04:03 pm

I was blown away by both you and Alona, you guys were amazing. I also bawled my eyes out as I love both characters. It's sad to see the kickass gals go, whos gonna fight the chicks corner now?! :P
Good Luck in you future projects.
Lou x
By Louise @ 20 Nov 2009 04:03 pm

I play around on Twitter and Facebook, but I have never taken the step of approaching an actor I admire directly like this.

I am a forty-two year old single mother of a teenage daughter - no big surprise that Ellen has always resonated with me as a character. I bounced for a week when I heard you were returning to the show.

Last night left me in tears, but in the best sort of way. It was the sort of exit worthy of series leads, and you sold every second of it.

(My daughter and I even wore our Harvelle's Roadhouse shirts today in tribute to Ellen and Jo's eternal awesomeness.)

Thank you, and thank Alona for everything you gave the show and us fans.
By Lisa Dalton @ 20 Nov 2009 04:10 pm

Both you and Alona were awesome, I was crying buckets the entire time. Great work, both of you!
By Aurora @ 20 Nov 2009 04:18 pm

You nailed it. I imagine it must be hard to see yourself written off from a show like that, but you gals went out the best way possible. Those were amazing scenes. Alona & you were so into it you dragged us right there with you. I managed to hold it together until that "Kick it in the ass"... that broke me. It was perfect. I'm going to have to find Brad and punch him, then hug him hard. *sigh*
This was your episode. I don't think it was meant to be that way, but you stole it from everyone else. I can't even really remember what anyone else was doing in it. (except for Luci... I love Luci!)
I'm sorry Ellen is gone, but I'm so happy you went out in a blaze of glory. From all the deaths I've seen on TV shows (and I've seen a bunch), Jo & Ellen's make it to #2, right after Charlie's on Lost in my most beautiful deaths' ranking.
I want to hug you right now.

Take care and thank you for that awesome moment of TV.
Lizz
By Isabelle @ 20 Nov 2009 04:23 pm

Supernatural fans will be very sad to see you go... You and Alona were absolutely brilliant and throughout that last scene i was crying - the most i have cried in ages. Those scenes were so beautifully edited and the script was terrifically written. We will all miss Ellen but nobody stays dead in the Winchester Verse! Thankyou :-) x
By Nance @ 20 Nov 2009 04:26 pm

Sam, I have to tell you I cried so hard when Ellen and Jo died. The work you and Alona did on the show was amazing, and I love you both for it. I always loved Ellen, from day one, and I will always consider her one of the best characters on the entire series. Lots of love for you!
By Kady @ 20 Nov 2009 04:32 pm

Sam, you were fantastic last night - I had to pause the episode until the tears stopped. I'll raise a glass (or a test tube shot) to you coming back in another guise or manifestation later on. Any chance you'll be at the Creationcon in LA?
By Heidi @ 20 Nov 2009 04:36 pm

You were absolutely awesome last and will be sorely missed :(

Thanks for being amazing!!!!!
By Rylinn @ 20 Nov 2009 04:36 pm

I cried, I wept, I freakin' bawled too! But I gotta say this, if they were going to kill Ellen and Jo off, I'm glad they went out as BIG DAMN HEROES!

Now, I'm off to cry again, dammit!
By Kat Coll @ 20 Nov 2009 04:40 pm

You rocked it. I was crying extremely hard watching the episode, it felt like - as you say - a break up. Ellen and Jo were brilliant characters and it's sad to see them gone :(

Looking forward to meeting you in Australia next year.
By Bex @ 20 Nov 2009 04:42 pm

Talk about lulling us into a false sense of security what with all of the deep dark secrets hidden in much humour over the past few episodes! I absolutely Bawled my eyes out in this epi! As always I loved your character and am deeply saddened to see her go! Well done on the role of Ellen, I truly loved her and would love to see her back if even as a ghost!!!
Wishing you all the very best in your future endeavours!!
Lots of Love
By Shona @ 20 Nov 2009 04:43 pm

Talk about lulling us into a false sense of security what with all of the deep dark secrets hidden in much humour over the past few episodes! I absolutely Bawled my eyes out in this epi! As always I loved your character and am deeply saddened to see her go! Well done on the role of Ellen, I truly loved her and would love to see her back if even as a ghost!!!
Wishing you all the very best in your future endeavours!!
Lots of Love
By Shona @ 20 Nov 2009 04:45 pm

Man, I knew when I saw Kripke at Comic Con this year, I should have told him not to kill Ellen EVER. I only thanked him for bringing you back and asked him not to kill Ellen in the episode. Whoops.

You and Alona knocked those scenes out of the park. Your last scene made me cry. I do wish that we would have got to see more of the stuff at Bobby's house before they went. More drinking games with Castiel!

Is it too early to wish for an alternate universe episode where they are alive?

I hope you have fun at the conventions but I hope that you will do some in the US too.
By Jennifer @ 20 Nov 2009 04:46 pm

You aren't the only one wondering why women don't get to live on that show. Or why they brought you back just to kill you off. I was hoping we were seeing the start of Dean's Desperate Army...

You did great, though. Fandom hasn't stopped crying.
By Magess @ 20 Nov 2009 04:48 pm

Oh, Samantha...that was the most amazing death scene I've ever seen. I bawled last night and I was so proud that they let two women go out like warriors. This afternoon, my daughter came home from school and we watched it together. In the final moments of the scene when you had your arm around Alona, I realized I was sitting in the chair with my Anna in the same position, completely by accident. And the squalling was done in stereo when Anna looked up and said, "You'd do that for me, wouldn't you?"

I promised if hellhounds ever came after us, I certainly would. :-) Thank you so much for making Ellen such a powerful mother and a mighty woman.

All the best!
Suz
By Suz Mc @ 20 Nov 2009 04:49 pm

RIP Ellen and Jo, i will be missing you sorely. You did great by the way, i always love the Harvelles, you guys awesome!! The best of luck for you and your next project :)
By baps @ 20 Nov 2009 05:01 pm

I did not cry when Sam died; I didn't cry when Dean went to Hell, though I confess that scene between Sam and Dean right before the hellhounds came did make me misty-eyed. But last night, when Jo and Ellen died, I bawled and bawled and just could not stop. I always liked Jo fine, LOVED Ellen's character, but even so I didn't expect to be so overcome with emotion at the deaths of those characters that I would be grabbing handfuls of kleenex and mopping at my eyes and literally sobbing. I still tear up thinking about that scene even now; so kudos to you and to Alona for creating THE most emotionally resonant, heartbreaking, devastatingly effective scene I've ever watched on Supernatural. Jo and Ellen were hunters and went out fighting like hunters, proud and fierce and wonderful, and even though I HATED to see it happen, both you and Alona should feel so proud of doing such a masterful job creating these characters and making me a complete wreck at their deaths.
By Sharilyn @ 20 Nov 2009 05:12 pm